Monday, August 19, 2013

Shattered, broken and glued back together.

As the title says, I've been shattered, broken and now being slowly glued back together.

A few days before Memorial day weekend, my husband informed me, he no longer loved me and wanted out.  I was devistated.  It was a complete and utter shock to me, how could this be happening?  I just became a sahm again, I wasn't working, I loved him with all my heart.  How could this be for real, has to be a joke, right?  Right?!  Wrong!!!! 
I was pathetic, 12 years, just flushed down the toilet, how could this have happened?? We were happy, weren't we? 

I spent a good month, exercising my heart out, it was my outlet, it held me together.  Along with my boys, of course!!

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Very proud of the numbers lost right there!!!  Several inches as well!  Slowly, I became only broken.

 I'm still very much in shock, how quickly my life has changed, how quickly everything is gone, how everything means so little.

Fast forward to now.  My life is a mess, I've gone back to work at my old job, I've made some new friends, I'm even seeing someone.  The boys are doing fantastic, thankfully the doodles are just too little, they won't remember much, if anything at all, except, that mommy made it out, alive.

I am happy.   
My theme song, it's helped beyond words.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Sahm again!

I'm a stay at home mom again!! <3

I can't begin to describe how awesome it is to be able to be home with my guys!!

I am also on a weight loss journey, I am so far at a loss of 42lbs!  I have another 40 to go, until my goal!  Maybe more than that once I get there, but I'm okay with that for now!

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The boys are getting so big!    Little doodle is just about 16m and Monkey doodle is 6!

This is from Memorial day!  Thanks for keeping us safe!!

We are in the process of finding a new place, so far it's just in the application process of a 3 bedroom / 2 bath half in a cute little area!  Wish us luck!

Hopefully I'll be able to post more now that I'm home again!  I'd really love to be able to update at least once a week, but we'll see how that goes. ;)  I think we know I suck at it!